Direction

Today's Waldo is direction.

I've recently realized that I spend (or waste . . . ) a lot of my time trying to make decisions that don't really matter.  They don't matter because by the time I come up with one, it seems the situation has changed completely anyway and it isn't applicable anymore.  That, and I can't stick with decisions.  On one hand, I stress myself out over things so much trying to be "logical" or "rational" that I drive myself crazy.  But on the other hand isn't it kind of a responsibility to yourself and the people around you that you make the effort to do what's best?  I feel like I have a constant battle in my mind between the part of me believes that I need to be careful in what I do/say because everything affects and determines everything else in your life and your future, yet at the same time, it doesn't matter.  It really doesn't.  Why my mind jumps to these dramatic and over-exaggerated conclusions constantly is beyond my understanding.  And having to live with my thoughts I can tell you it's also incredibly irritating.  But no matter how many times I tell myself it's ok, I don't feel ok.  I'm pretty sure this is connected to my previous obsession with my horoscope, magic 8 balls, the song game, and fortune cookies.  And I can also say that since I stopped reading my horoscope my stress level over making decisions has gone way up because suddenly I am the one in charge of that decision.  Not just the astrologer who comes up with crazy bizarre scenarios that I somehow over interpret and make directly connected to my life, but me.